One of those days...

Have any of you heard that song Breath of Heaven by Amy Grant ?

I have traveled many moonless night
Cold and weary with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, You have come
And chosen me now
To carry Your son


I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

Chorus:
Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me, Your holiness
For You are holy, Breath of Heaven


Do You wonder as You watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

(I found the lyrics at http://www.lyricsdomain.com/ ) 

Those embolden words I feel like describe my life.  I don't want Vulvodynia.  It frightens me how it will affect the rest of my life and whether it will ever go away and I just keep praying it will go away.  Isn't there someone wiser much more capable of carrying this load. But its not my place to question, I offer all I am for the mercy of God's plan... and I have to trust that He will give me the strength and cover me in His presence...  Lord please lift my spirits